Sunday, June 12, 2011


Tomorrow. The only positive thing about tomorrow is knowing that it will be over by the end of the day.
I will not be allowed to eat or drink anything after midnight tonight. I will get up at 5am, drive myself to an appointment during which I will be sedated. (Endoscopy, stomach) Ryan will bring along five kids to pick me up, and we will leave my car there. I will be home for an hour and a half, and then Ryan will drive me to pick up my car, and I will drive myself to the next appointment. (Ultrasound, gallbladder)
I don't generally say that I am afraid, even if I am. But I will say it now. I am afraid. As with any invasive procedure, there are risks involved. I might not wake up from sedation. They might puncture my stomach lining.
Also, I do not love the idea of fasting for more than 16 hours. But, tomorrow is only one day, and it won't last forever. I am hoping for some answers.


  1. mmm, the anticipation can be scary... the unknowns. My thoughts are with you, hon.

  2. I think another fear is that there will end up being more questions and less answers... I know that might be a silly thing to fear, but I really would like to know what's going on, and fix it! It's been too long now.