Wednesday, April 29, 2015
Tuesday, April 28, 2015
Monday, April 27, 2015
Saturday, April 25, 2015
Friday, April 24, 2015
Thursday, April 23, 2015
Zaia came flying into my room after we'd all gone to bed...I said, "What's up?" He said, "You didn't hear that thumping sound??" I said, "I heard you thumping... You scared?"
"Yeah... Can I stay in here with you?"
"Yep. Go to sleep."
I sensed him sitting straight up, and asked if he'd feel better if I had a knife or pepper spray close by. He said, "I've got my pocket knife..." and laid down.
After a few minutes, he said, "I freaked out over nothing, didn't I."
"I think so, babe, but that's okay. I do, too, sometimes."
And then he went back to his room.
And I laid there for a long time, remembering how scared I was the last couple years of my marriage. I moved into our guest room a year before we got divorced....I don't think I need to say why... And slept with the door locked and a knife under my pillow until I was finally able to move out.
Tuesday, April 21, 2015
I dreamed last night, all the people from the conference were in it. We had to tear down a huge machine, piece by piece, clean the pieces, and try to put it back together, in the dark... All while a battle was raging around us. Dodging bullets and stomping out fires.... It was a really frustrating feeling.