Saturday, October 23, 2010

Sleep? No. Panic.

A breath that won't be caught, body taut with tension so great it becomes paralyzing. Mind sprinting, rest impossible. Eyes wide, chest tight, muscles ache, nerves thrum with an electricity that takes away everything.
Fear overtakes what's rational, every sound is torture to the ears. Hours upon hours, a prisoner of a thing not easily explained.
I sing myself a lullabye, it's okay, it's okay, I'm okay, I'm okay, safe, safe, safe... it doesn't work. My voice sounds foreign to my ears, and I don't trust myself. I don't believe the words.
The need for sleep so strong, but nothing is strong enough tonight to set me free.