did i abandon you there? are you feeling homesick or sad? would you tell me if something happened to you? walking into your cabin and seeing all the bunkbeds brought back a sickness inside of me... i smiled for your sake, because you were excited... but inside i felt like something was dying.
you didn't want to hug me "good-bye"... you just wanted to get on with all the fun of camp - don't worry, i understand. i never want to put my feelings onto you, to cause your excitement to fade... these are my own demons, and i fight them always.
i wonder if you know how very much i love you - i would kill for you, my oldest son, my joy, my hero. i would die for you.
our family feels a little bit broken with you gone...
I'm praying that Jonas will be safe at camp. You are an amazing mom, Bonnie. Your love for your children is something they will thank you for. =)
ReplyDeleteThis made me tear up. My oldest is only 4, but I am positive I will be feeling everything you have just described one day in the future.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you, Bonnie :)
thanks for praying, joel.
ReplyDeletethanks, monica! it is our blessing and our curse to love so much...