did i abandon you there? are you feeling homesick or sad? would you tell me if something happened to you?
walking into your cabin and seeing all the bunkbeds brought back a sickness inside of me... i smiled for your sake, because you were excited... but inside i felt like something was dying.
you didn't want to hug me "good-bye"... you just wanted to get on with all the fun of camp - don't worry, i understand. i never want to put my feelings onto you, to cause your excitement to fade... these are my own demons, and i fight them always.
i wonder if you know how very much i love you - i would kill for you, my oldest son, my joy, my hero. i would die for you.
our family feels a little bit broken with you gone...